I nod. I know what it feels like to be out of control. “Why don’t you take a break for a half hour or so?” I say. “I’ll go hang with Karl.”
Her eyes widen, and she looks so excited that I wish I’d made the offer as soon as they arrived. “Really?” she asks.
I nod. “Have fun. I’ll take care of him.”
Tears fill her eyes, and I realize how much this woman desperately needs a break.
“I’ll see you in thirty,” I say.
She nods and walks toward her cabin. She’s tired, and I can tell.
I walk to the campfire. The sun has just barely set, and there are only a few kids out here. “Hey, Gonzo,” I say to Karl. He turns around and looks at me, his grin big and goofy and so f**king adorable that I already love this kid. “You giving Reagan a hard time?” I drop down to sit on a log that rims the fire.
She’s really pretty, he signs. He looks up at her, blinking his blue eyes, his face tilted toward hers. She smiles at him.
“What did he say?” she asks.
“He says you’re really pretty,” I translate.
He throws up his hands in protest. You’re not supposed to tell her!
Sorry, dude, I sign back, trying not to grin. If you’re going to talk about her, I’m going to have to tell her what you say. I grab his shoulder and squeeze. This is a rule my brothers came up with, and we always stand by it. You don’t get to use sign language to talk about people. It’s for communication. So, unless you want her to know it, you better keep it to yourself.
Traitor, he signs. But he’s grinning.
Reagan blushes, but she says, “Thank you, Karl. I think you’re kind of cute, too.”
I’ve never seen a kid grin quite so big. She looks down at him. “Do you want to go with me to find some sticks for the fire?”
He nods, and he’s already moving before she’s even ready to go.
“You think we should bring your mouthpiece?” she asks, nodding her head toward me.
He signs to me. I got this. You stay here. He waggles his eyebrows at me.
Not a chance, dumbass, I say back. He laughs. It’s the first sound I’ve heard him make. She’s too old for you.
Maybe she likes younger men.
I look around like I’ve lost something. I don’t see any other men here. I see a pretty lady and a boy who’s hoping to get some action.
He grins and nods.
I laugh. She’s too old for you. So lay off. We’ll find you a different one. One more your speed.
My speed is faster than you think.
Apparently.
She turns back from where she’s been walking in front of us. “Are you talking about my ass?” she asks. She doesn’t even crack a smile.
Gonzo points to me as if to say, “He was.”
She laughs and blushes again.
Traitor, I sign when she turns back around.
He laughs, jumping in his chair a little.
Now all I can do is stare at her ass. She’s cute. Like a fairy princess walking in the woods, picking up sticks. When her arms are full, she looks at Gonzo and says, “Can you be my hero and carry these back?”
He nods and lets her fill his lap up with sticks. He turns to take them to the fire and leaves us standing there, gathering more of them. “Hurry back,” I call to him. He turns back and signs, Hands off my girl.
I hold my hands out to the side and then give him a thumbs-up.
She turns to me and extends her hand. “I’m Reagan.”
She doesn’t remember me. Should I even remind her? She probably works hard on a daily basis to forget that night.
I take her hand in mine and heat shoots straight through me. And it’s not because it’s been two years since I’ve had a woman in my arms. There’s something about this girl. She jerks her hand back and looks into my eyes. I want to ask her if she felt that. She wipes her hands on her jeans, and I realize she was just pulling back because my hands are sweaty. I’m an idiot.
“Pete,” I say.
“Why do you call him Gonzo?” she asks.
“Why not?” I continue to pick up sticks.
“He’s a sweet boy,” she says.
“He’s a hormone on wheels,” I correct.
She laughs. “At least you see him as a normal young man. Most people see the chair.” She shakes her head and looks up at me. I feel like she’s looking directly into my soul. “What makes you different?” she asks.
You mean aside from my tats, piercings, and the fact that I came from prison? I shrug. I look in his direction. He’s already on his way back. “I just see a boy who wants to be treated like one.” I call to him when he gets close. “Hey Gonzo,” I say. “Can you take some more?” He grins and nods. We load him up, and he leaves again. I turn to her. “So, what makes you different, Reagan?” I ask. I want to touch her, but I don’t dare. So, I just look at her instead. I watch her lips and wait for her to explain the meaning of life to me.
Reagan
He has the bluest eyes I’ve ever seen. It’s a little distracting because his piercings draw your attention away from his eyes and then you have to find your way back. He has tattoos all the way up his arms, from his wrists to where his T-shirt breaks up the designs. Then they start again and go all the way up his neck. He’s broad and tall, and he’s a little intimidating. But he’s not, all at the same time. He saw me at my most vulnerable point, and he did exactly what I needed.
“I don’t think I’m different,” I say. “I’m just like every one of those kids.” She nods toward the cabins. “No better. No worse. Same fears. Same drives.” I shrug.
He nods slowly and starts to pick up sticks again. He has a tattoo on the back of his neck. The words Sam is written in gothic, chunky letters.
“Is Sam your girlfriend?” I blurt out. I immediately want to bite the words back, but they’re already out there.
“Sam?” he asks.
I rub the back of my neck, then point to his. “The tattoo.”
He smiles. “Oh, that.”
But he doesn’t elaborate. I feel like a dummy for even asking the first time. I’m not going to ask again.
“So, you’re home from college?” he asks. I can’t believe he doesn’t remember me.
I nod.
“Where do you go?” he asks. He looks at me, waiting for my answer. And I don’t think I’ve ever had this much attention from a man that I actually want to talk to. He really cares about what I say. Or at least he wants me to think he does.
“NYU,” I reply. “Junior this year.”
“My brother goes to NYU.” He smiles. “Logan Reed?” he asks. But it’s a big school. The chance of me knowing his brother is small. But I know about all his brothers because I asked a lot of questions when I was looking for him.
I shake my head.
“He’s deaf.”
I shake my head again. The only time I have seen him was outside the prison yesterday, never at school.
“All tatted up, like me.” He looks down at his arms, and I take the opportunity to look at his tattoos.
“Can I see?” I ask. I don’t want to be rude, but I really want to look at him. I don’t want to touch him, but I want to look.
He grins. “You can look, but you can’t touch,” he teases. It’s like he read my mind. My heart starts to thud. I’m the last person he has to worry about touching him. “Because I like my nuts exactly as they’re hanging.”
My face floods with heat, but I don’t let the opportunity to study the drawings on his skin pass me by. I look at the cross that has the word Mom written inside it. “What’s this one for?” I ask.
“My mom died a few years ago.”
He also has the word Dad with wings attached. “Your dad died too?” I ask.
“He left after our mom died.” He stills. He’s suddenly tense, and I hate that I asked.
“I’m sorry,” I say.
“I don’t want your sympathy, princess,” he says.
I snort. “Princess?”
He nods, his gaze lingering on my eyes, then my lips. He licks his and draws his lip ring into his mouth to play with it with his tongue. “Princess,” he says slowly.
“You couldn’t be further from the truth,” I say. He has me pegged all wrong.
“I doubt it.” He looks at me for a minute too long. My stomach flips.
Suddenly, I hear the crash of boots stomping through the woods. I look up and see my dad walking toward us, a scowl on his face, and he has the hatchet in his hand. Pete immediately crosses his hands in front of his lap and steps away from me.
“Go help with dinner,” Dad snaps at me. He glares at Pete.
“Yes, sir,” I say. I take the sticks Pete has in his arms and smile at him. “See you later,” I whisper.
“Don’t go,” he whispers back. “Who’s going to protect my nuts?”
“Princesses don’t do that.” I grin at him and walk away. It’s hard to do, but I don’t even look back over my shoulder.
Pete
Shit. Now I’m in trouble.
“You had one rule,” Reagan’s dad snaps. He holds up a finger. “One rule!”
“Yes, sir,” I say. “I remember.”
I won’t be surprised at all if fire shoots from his mouth and his eyeballs pop out. “If you remember, then why were you alone in the woods with my daughter, Mr. Reed?” he asks. He’s really close to being in my face. But my brothers have done worse. This is nothing compared to when they try to throttle me.
“Pete,” I say.
“Beg your pardon?” He glares at me.
“My name is Pete,” I say. “We should probably be on a first name basis if you’re going to get intimate enough to chop my nuts off.” I motion to his hatchet.
He blows out a quick breath, grins, and shakes his head.
“We were just gathering sticks, sir,” I say.
He narrows his eyes and glares at me. “Can I trust you?” he asks.
“I want to go home when I’m done here, sir,” I say. I want this f**king bracelet off my leg.
“Nice manners,” he mutters. “Who raised you?” he asks. “The system?”
“No, sir,” I say. “I have four brothers.”
“Where are your parents?”
“Gone.”
“I know your story, but why’d you end up in jail?” He’s blunt. I kind of like that.
“Stupid choices I made.” I kick at a rock in my path to keep from having to look at him.
He nods. “At least you know they were stupid.”
I heave a sigh. “Sir, I’ve done my time. Don’t send me back. I promise I won’t bother your daughter, and I won’t let anyone else bother her, either.”
He looks into my eyes. “I believe you.” He starts to tug on a leaf hanging near his head. “My daughter…she’s special.”
I don’t respond because I don’t really think he wants me to. I agree with him, though. She’s too f**king special for someone like me.