The tension in her body was back. Shit. I thought that explained it. Was she that upset over it?
"She was your first." Blaire's voice was so soft I almost missed it.
Someone had told her. Fuck. Who knew that other than Grant? It wasn't like I shared my sexual history with people. Who could have told her? I cupped her face in my hands. "And you're my last."
Her eyes softened. I was getting good at this sweet talking thing. I hadn't much cared about saying the right thing with females before. It was easy with Blaire. I was just being honest.
"I..." She stopped and wiggled in my arms. "I need to go to the restroom," she said. I was positive that wasn't what she was going to say at first but I let her get up.
She was wearing a yellow tank top and pair of pink panties that I knew girls referred to as boy shorts. Even though no guy I knew would wear something like that. Her hips looked fuller and the idea of bending her over the bed and holding those hips made me hard as a rock. I needed to focus. She was upset about something and she wasn't telling me what it was. I had to fix this. I didn't want her upset.
My phone rang and I reached over to get it off the nightstand. It was Nan. Not who I wanted to talk to at the moment. I pressed ignore. After turning off the ringer, I checked the time. It was only ten after nine.
Blaire stepped back out of the bathroom and grinned sheepishly. "I'm kinda hungry."
"Then let's go feed you," I said getting up and reaching for my jeans.
"I need to go to the grocery. I was going to go earlier but I was sleepy so I thought I'd take a nap first."
"I'll take you to dinner then we'll go grocery shopping in the morning. There are no grocery stores open this late around here."
Blaire look confused. "There aren't any restaurants in town open either."
"The club is open until eleven. You know that." I yanked my shirt down over my head then walked over to her. She was studying me like she didn't understand.
"What?" I asked grabbing her waist and pulling her almost naked body up against me.
"People will see you with me at the club. People other than your friends," she said slowly as if letting it sink in.
"And?" I asked.
She tilted her head back so she could look up at me. "And I work there. They know I work there."
I still didn't understand what she was saying. "I'm not following you."
Blaire let out an exasperated sigh. "Do you not care that other club members will see you eating dinner with an employee?"
I froze. What? "Blaire," I said slowly, making sure I'd heard her correctly. "Did you just ask me if I cared if someone saw me eating with you? Please tell me I misunderstood that."
She shrugged.
I dropped my hands from her waist and walked over to the door. She had to be kidding me. When had I ever led her to believe that I was ashamed of her?
I looked back at her. She had crossed her arms over her chest as she watched me.
"When have I ever made you think I didn't want to be seen with you? Because if I have then I swear to you I'll go fix it."
She shrugged again. "I don't know. We've just never really gone out on a date. I mean there was the honky-tonk that time but it wasn't really a date. Your social functions normally don't include me."
My chest constricted. She was right. I'd never taken her anywhere other than to buy furniture and a ride to Sumit and back. Fuck. I was an idiot. "You're right. I suck. I've never taken you anywhere special," I whispered then shook my head. I had never really had a relationship before. I f**ked girls and then I sent them home.
"So all this time you thought I was ashamed of you?" I asked, knowing I didn't want to hear the answer. It was going to hurt like a motherfucker.
"Not ashamed exactly. I just... I just thought well, I don't fit into your world. I know that. Just because I'm pregnant with our baby doesn't mean you have to claim me in any way. You're just being supportive - "
"Blaire. Please. Stop now. I can't listen to any more." I closed the distance I'd put between us. "You're my world. I want everyone to know. I don't know how to date so I never even thought of taking you on a date. But I can promise you right now; I will be taking you on so many damn dates that there won't be a person in this town that doesn't know I worship the ground you walk on," I swore before reaching out and taking her hand. "Forgive me for being an idiot."
Blaire blinked back tears and nodded. I wondered how many more times I was going to screw up before I ever got this right.
Chapter 32
Blaire
The cell phone Rush had bought for me was sitting on the kitchen bar when I walked out of my room. This was the third time this week he'd left it somewhere for me to find. This time it had a note attached.
I picked it up.
Think about the baby. You need this for emergencies.
That was a low blow. Smiling I picked the phone up and put it in my pocket. He wasn't going to give up until I accepted it. Today was my second doctor's appointment. I'd told Rush about it on our third date Monday night. He'd been very determined to take me on dates all week. Last night I'd begged him to just stay in and watch a movie. He had made his point. Everyone in town had seen us together. I was sure they were all sick of seeing us together by now. The thought made me smile even bigger.
I slipped the phone back out of my pocket. I had forgotten to remind Rush about today's appointment last night. Now I had a phone so I could call him. His name was the first one on my contacts list under favorites. I wasn't surprised.
It rang three times before he answered.
"Hey, I need to call you back," Rush's voice said in an annoyed tone.