Trying to wait up for you! Where the hell are you?! I want to know what happened. Text me back bitch!
The next one was a bit of a surprise. It was from Nate.
Still on for meeting to work on the project in the morning? Let me know, I’ll bring coffee.
Shit. I had forgotten all about meting up with Nate tomorrow. That meant Kane would have to take me back to school a little earlier then I thought. I tapped out a quick response to Nate letting him know we were still on and that he could bring me whatever he was having. I got an almost immediate response back from him saying he would be at the library at nine.
I decided to call Jessi instead of texting her. There was so much I wanted to tell her and I didn’t think my fingers would keep up. After one ring, she picked up.
“Spill it, hooker! Where the hell are you?! You are never out later than me.”
I took a deep breath. “I’m at Kane’s. I won’t be coming back tonight so you don’t have to wait up.”
The high-pitched squeal she let out had me holding the phone away from my ear. It was so loud I wasn’t sure that Kane didn’t hear it all the way in the living room.
“I knew it! You’re going to have sex aren’t you?!”
I bit my lip and ran my finger back and forth across the counter top. “About that,” I paused then looked up at myself in the mirror. I didn’t look any different did I? I sure felt different, but I still looked like me … but I wasn’t a virgin anymore. I felt like there should be some neon sign above my head flashing ‘she swiped her v-card, folks!’ But there was no sign, just me. Just Kelsey, but I knew I was different. That fact was evident from the dull ache I still had between my legs. The ache that was the reminder that Kane had been there.
“We kind of already did…”
There was silence on her end before another squeal. “Oh my God! Kelsey! How could you not tell me right after it happened? Where did it happen? When?! How was it?! I bet it was good. Kane looks like he would be good. Tell me, does he have piercings anywhere else?”
My cheeks felt like they had been lit on fire, “Jessi! No he doesn’t have any more piercings! I can’t believe you would ask me that!” I don’t think it was the question that had really embarrassed me, it was the fact that I was kind of turned on thinking about Kane having more piercings and wondering if he would ever consider it. Stop! I needed to stop thinking right now.
“Look, I can’t go into details with you right now. I am getting ready to hop in the shower.” I heard her inhale and I knew the question that was getting ready to pop out of her mouth. “Alone, Jessi. Before you even ask. I am taking a shower alone.”
“Well that’s just boring,” she said. “You know you could conserve water and shower together?” she giggled. She knew she was killing me.
I rolled my eyes even though she couldn’t see. “I just wanted to let you know not to wait up for me. I am supposed to meet Nate at nine to go over the group project. You sure you can’t make it?”
“Nope, sure can’t. You crazy kids have fun with that. I’ll just play catch up.”
“Like always?”
“Don’t you start with me, Kelsey Rien. Just because you are a woman now doesn’t mean you are the boss of me,” she giggled again and I huffed. I knew later she was going to want every single detail about what had happened tonight, and because she was my best friend, I would tell her. Okay, maybe I wouldn’t tell her everything. It was special. I wanted to keep it something that was just between Kane and me, but I would give her enough to pacify her.
“Just know that it was special and that he made me feel comfortable. He was tender and great and it was everything I could have hoped for.” I smiled at the memory of tonight.
Jessi let out a deep sigh, “I’m so happy for you, Kelsey. I bet it was romantic and I’m glad it was special for you. You deserve good memories like that.” This is why she was my best friend. Even though we had never spoken about making new memories to cancel out the old ones, she understood exactly what I was doing.
“I love you, Jess. I will see you tomorrow.”
“Love you too, Kels. And just think, if it was good the first time when it’s supposed to be awkward and uncomfortable, just imagine how it’s going to be … the next time,” she laughed.
“Bye, Jessi.” I shook my head at my friend.
“Later, babe.” She replied and I hit end.
Could she be right? Could it get better than what it had been? This time was pretty great, when it had not been painful. Maybe she was right, maybe the next time would be even better. I felt a heat rise up from my chest and I knew I needed to get in the shower—a cold one at that—and stop thinking about a next time. Who even knew if there would be a next time?
When I finally emerged from the bathroom, Kane was sitting on his couch watching his huge TV. I quietly walked to the end of the couch and stood. He must have heard me anyway because he picked up the remote, pointed it at the TV and turned it off. He leaned forward placing the remote on the table, then stood and made his way to me. I swear it had probably been twenty minutes since I had seen him last, but it felt like it had been an eternity because all I wanted to do was throw myself at him and kiss him … hard.
“Hi,” he said as he stood in front of me.
I looked up at him through my lashes and bit the corner of my lip out of nervous habit. He smiled and used his thumb to pull my lip free from my teeth. “You really have to stop doing that.” He smiled, then leaned in to kiss me.
The kiss started out soft and sweet, but quickly grew as I wrapped both arms around his neck and ran my hands over his short hair. I broke from the kiss, needing some air, or so I thought. But the light-headedness I was feeling had nothing to do with lack of oxygen, it was all simply due to Kane and what he did to me. With his mouth now free from mine, he began kissing along my jawbone up to my ear.
“You should really just wear my clothes all the time.” He seductively breathed in my ear and my body automatically responded. I tightened my arms around his neck and he let out a throaty laugh. “You call Jessi and tell her you weren’t coming back tonight?” he asked.
I nodded because honestly I didn’t think I could form any words at the moment, but bringing up my phone call with Jessi also reminded me that I needed to tell him I had to be at the library at nine. But when he began kissing my neck, I lost that thought and could only focus on his lips and what they were doing to me.