I know we’ve gone our separate ways before, but this time, it feels permanent. He’s about to reenter the angel world. And when he does, he’ll forget all about that Daughter of Man he partnered up with for a few days. He’s made it clear that he can’t be with me.
‘Is this goodbye?’ I ask.
He nods.
We look into each other’s eyes. As usual, I have no idea what he’s thinking. I could make guesses, but they’d be fantasy.
He leans down, and his lips hover a hair’s breadth from mine. I close my eyes, feeling the tingle of anticipation.
Then he presses his lips to mine. His warmth spreads out from my lips down into my chest and stomach. Time stops, and I forget about everything else – the apocalypse, my enemies, watching eyes, monsters in the night.
All I feel is the kiss.
All I am is Raffe’s girl.
Then he pulls back.
He presses his forehead to mine, and I can feel the prickling of tears behind my lashes.
‘You’re going to get your wings back.’ I swallow and talk fast before my voice can waver. ‘You’ll become Messenger, and they’ll follow you as their leader. Then you’ll take the angels home, away from here. Promise me that when you become the Messenger, you’ll take them away from here, away from all of us.’
‘Not much of a chance that I’ll become Messenger, but yes, I’ll do what I can to take them away.’
And he’ll be the first one gone.
I swallow.
We stand there for a few moments, our breath mingling.
The wind picks up, and it feels like we’re the only living beings in the world.
Then he straightens up, leaning away from me. ‘It’s not about what I want or need. My people, the entire fabric of my society is about to unravel. I can’t let that happen.’
‘I didn’t ask you to.’ I slowly wrap my arms around my middle. ‘You’re the best hope for my people too, you know. If you take control and take them back to where they came from, my world will be saved too.’ But you won’t be with me.
He shakes his head sadly at me. ‘These are the rules we live by. We are soldiers, Penryn. Legendary warriors willing to make legendary sacrifices. We do not ask. We do not choose.’ He says that like a motto, a pledge he’s said a thousand times.
He slowly lets me go, firmly setting me aside.
He brushes my hair out of my face, strokes my cheek. He looks at every part of my face as if memorizing it. A half smile forms on his lips.
Then he drops his hand, turns around, and leaps into the air.
I put my hand over my mouth to keep from calling him back.
The October wind tugs at my hair. Dry leaves float by, lost and abandoned.
25
I should go.
Turn around and leave this place.
But my feet feel like they’re rooted to the sidewalk. I stand there, worried. Worried that it’s a trap, worried that I won’t see him again, worried that he is yet again in the hands of his enemies.
I’m so lost in all the things that might happen that I don’t hear the footsteps behind me until they’re too close for me to run.
People step out from behind buildings. One, five, twenty. They’re all dressed in sheets, and their heads are shaved.
‘You missed them,’ I say. ‘They weren’t much to look at anyway.’
They walk toward me from all sides.
‘We’re not here for them,’ one of them says. The top of his head is more tanned than the others’ like he’s been shaving his for some time. ‘The masters like to do their business in private. We understand that.’
‘The masters?’
The group keeps closing in on me, and I start to feel trapped. But these are cult members, not street gangs. They don’t exactly have a reputation for attacking people. Still, I put my hand on my teddy bear hanging at my hip.
‘No, we’re not here for them,’ I hear a woman’s voice say. ‘No one has a bounty on your angel friend.’ Then I see her – the woman who offered herself up to Paige.
‘I guess I should have let her eat you.’
The woman glares at me as though I humiliated her by saving her life.
I pull off the bear and wrap my hand around the sword handle. It’s cold and hard and ready for battle. But I’m hesitant to use it on them. We all have more than enough enemies trying to kill us already without going after each other.
I back away from Tan Head. The circle tightens. ‘Are you really going to harm the sister of the Great One?’ Hopefully, they believe in their own story.
‘No, we mean you no harm,’ says Tan Head. He reaches for me.
I step away and pull out my sword.
A hand holding a damp cloth reaches around me from behind and clamps down over my mouth and nose. The cloth reeks of something awful that shoots straight into my head and makes the world fuzzy.
I try to struggle.
I knew it was a trap. I just hadn’t realized the trap was for me.
My thoughts turn into a jumbled mess.
The sharp scent of chemicals, the burning of the fumes going down my throat – these are the last things I remember as the world fades into darkness.
26
I wake up blinking in the sunlight in the back of a classic Rolls-Royce. Everything is sleek and shiny and polished. Big band music plays with glorious fidelity. The driver wears a black suit complete with a chauffeur’s hat. He watches me through the rearview mirror as I groggily come to.
My head feels foggy, and my nose is still full of a chemical scent. What happened?
Oh, yeah, the cult . . . I put my hand up and touch my hair to make sure it’s still there. You never know.
My hair is still on me, but my sword is not. Only my empty teddy bear hangs on my shoulder strap. I stroke the soft fur, wondering what they did with my sword. It’s too valuable for them to have left it and too heavy for them to have taken it far. I can only hope they hefted it into the trunk or somewhere nearby as proof that they got the right girl for the bounty.
My car seems to be part of a matching caravan of classic cars – one in front of us and one behind.
‘Where are we going?’ My throat feels lined with sand.
The driver doesn’t answer. His silence gives me the creeps.
‘Hello?’ I ask. ‘You don’t need to worry about anyone hearing us. Angels don’t like Man’s technology. They won’t have a bug in here or anything.’
Silence.
‘Can you hear me? Are you deaf?’ The driver doesn’t respond.
Maybe the angels have figured out that we are not as perfectly formed as they are. Maybe they’ve realized the value of some of our flaws and hired a deaf driver so that he can’t hear me enough to be persuaded.