Of course, Néomi didn't bother hiding her disgusted expression. Strangely, when Conrad's eyes darted in her direction, she could swear he became more restless. Then his gaze slid to the window once more.
"Bagged blood is all you're going to get," Nikolai said. "If you don't drink it, then you go without."
"I hunt. I feed from the vein. Unlike you unmanned traitors," Conrad bit out, facing him again. "I know you hide me from your king. Your Russian king. He'll execute you for this - favored general or not."
"Possibly. So you know the risk we take."
"Why?"
"We want to help you - "
"Like you did last time!" Conrad bellowed, wrestling against the chain that trapped him to the bed, those tremendous muscles straining.
Undaunted, Nikolai continued, "We're going to help you combat your bloodlust."
"Never." Conrad's bloody fangs seemed to sharpen. "No one comes back. The red on my eyes will never go away."
"It would if I bled you out, drained you completely dry. But you'd only want to return to that state, killing even more than before. And you'd lose all the power you'd amassed."
"I know this!"
"Then did you know you can learn to control the memories if you're not constantly adding new ones?" At Conrad's mildly surprised look, Nikolai said, "We're aware of the memories. They're a sickness. You can't differentiate between those of your victims and your own. They make you hallucinate constantly, and your head feels like it will explode from them."
What did they mean? Conrad was sick? Was there an actual medical reason behind his madness?
"Yet what if you could turn them on and off, accessing them at will?" Nikolai asked. "How much better do you think your life would be without them tormenting you? If we can get you stable, you can learn to hold them at bay."
Conrad shook his head sharply. "I want blood from the vein. Only from the vein - "
"That's why we're going to help you find your Bride. Because there is one drive that's strong enough to compete with bloodlust."
His Bride? Did Nikolai mean the need for sex?
"And the need to kill?" Conrad bit out. "I savor it... ache to end you right now."
"Just as there's one drive that can overcome bloodlust, there's one need that's stronger than the need to kill."
"And what's that?" Conrad sneered.
Nikolai said only, "You'll know when it hits you."
Conrad glanced at the window yet again. "What are you injecting me with?" Sometimes when he spoke, he would hesitate as if even he couldn't believe he'd just sounded sane. He must have been mad for a very long time.
"A soothsayer got it from the witches for us. It's a sedative of sorts. It'll continue to weaken you physically, but after a few days, it shouldn't put you in a stupor."
Attention back to his brother, Conrad snapped, "You've no right to drug me!"
"We'll do whatever it takes," Nikolai said, with steel in his tone. "You were a good man and can be again."
"Not a man! No longer!" He ground his teeth. "I'm a killer, that's all."
"Most in the Lore believe you're lost. That the red automatically means we have no choice but to destroy you. I do not agree. Mark me, Conrad. One way or another, you will be cured of this," Nikolai vowed, his voice fierce, his gray eyes turning black, as if with emotion. No matter what had occurred, she knew that Nikolai indeed loved his younger brother. "We have resources at our disposal that you can't begin to comprehend."
Nikolai's answer seemed to be just cryptic and confident enough to intrigue Conrad. "And exactly how long am I to be jailed and drugged?"
"A month. We're going to keep you from killing for a month. If there's no change by then, we will... reevaluate."
Any interest in Conrad's expression dimmed. "I don't have that long."
"Why? What do you mean?"
Conrad didn't answer, seeming to go adrift in his own thoughts, his red eyes skittering in her direction again. She could have sworn he began following her movements, so she floated to the window seat. But he continued staring at the spot where she'd just been.
She saw the exact moment Nikolai knew he'd get no further, because he looked whipped with disappointment. With a grave nod to Conrad, he traced out, and seconds later, Murdoch appeared.
He turned the folding chair around and sat, leaning forward, elbows to his knees. "We've missed you, Con," he said quietly. This brother seemed weary to Néomi, like a man undertaking an arduous journey. And his expression constantly looked as if he'd just, at that very instant, determined he wasn't even halfway there.
"I know you hate Nikolai and me for what we did to you," he began. "But we can't take it back."
What did Nikolai and Murdoch do? These undercurrents, the tensions, the unspoken words - she had to admit all of this was fascinating to her.
"No matter how you treat us, Nikolai won't give up on this. Not until he's convinced you're beyond salvation."
Conrad smiled, his teeth still bloodied, fangs prominent - the most menacing smile Néomi had ever seen. As she shivered, he said, "Convince him then, brother. There's no delivering me from being evil."
6
When does the goddamned sun set in this place? He checks the sun's progress - no different from twenty seconds ago - then studies his brother's tired visage.
"Con, I can't convince Nikolai to give up on you, not when I won't," Murdoch says. "Just cooperate with us. Life can be good again."