Derek had never looked at it like that. Hed assumed he did Grant and everyone else a favor by staying off the estates. Hed easily avoided home and all the attendant worries because his younger brother did such a good job with them.
Now, learning that Grant was encumbered by those duties, Derek understood it wasnt fair to tie him up in his affairs. But he couldnt think about that now. Besides, Grant knew better than to have mentioned Lydia and William to him in the same conversation.
To hell with you, Grant. I have other plans. I dont give a bloody damn what happens while Im gone. No ones forcing you to stay on.
A look of bitter disappointment flashed in his brothers eyes before he stood and turned away. Seemingly resigned, Grant walked over to the port window, studiously taking in the scene of activity on the docks. Derek wasnt fooled. This wasnt the last hed hear about this, and the only reason it had ended now was that Grant despised emotional scenes.
Changing the subject, Grant remarked, I am pleased that youre captaining this race, at least. We need this win. He turned to stare Derek down. We really need this win. Our reputation has been compromisedwhose wouldnt be after losing twelve cargoes in the last year? Yet you continually sign on the riskiest ventures. In case you havent noticed, weve had several contracts pulled.
Of course Ive noticed, Derek said testily. And he had. Shipping contracts were based on past performance and reputation, so lost ships and the consequently damaged reputation could prove ruinous to a line.
If Lassiter wins this race, his company will finally be on solid footing. He could easily take over even more of our business.
I willnever allow that to happen.
Grants brows drew together. Why do you two hate each other so much?
Derek drank while considering his answer. He harasses me because he has a Yanks natural aversion to the aristocracymen should make their own way and all that drivel. He looked up when he realized Grant had said nearly the same thing, but ignored his brothers frown. He complains to any wholl listen that I was handed everything while he works tirelessly.
You know thats not true, Grant said. And you? Why do you hate him?
Of those twelve lost cargoes you were mentioning, hes directly responsible for at least four
A knock on the door broke the tense conversation.
When Derek called permission, Jeb entered and said, Capn, weve got goods come to be delivered. I just wanted to make sure that were not taking on perishables until the decision to sail is made.
Whatever Grant detected in Dereks face had him clenching his fists. Decision to sailwhat bloody decision? he ground out. Why arent you provisioned?
Jeb decided this was a good chance to escape, and with a Sorry, Capn, he scrambled out to close the door behind him.
Calm down. I do plan on sailing, Derek said. Just not yet. Seeing the uncompromising look on his brothers face, he reluctantly began filling him in on Nicole.
Derek, dont take me for a fool, Grant said when he finished. You dont expect me to believe you are looking for a woman. Much less Lassiters chit.
Its true. And its important to me. He took a generous swig of brandy. Lassiter, you obviously havent heard, is in jail right now. And will be until after the race. Without him, there is no competition for the Southern Cross.
As Grant took in that new information, Derek continued, And whats the urgency about sailing today? Ill win, but if I didnt, whats the worst thing that can happen? We lose a few more contracts? You know that wont break either of our banks.
Grant loomed over his desk. Dont you have any pride left? Peregrine could be the most powerful line in Britain, was well on its way to being that. But then you let a woman crush you and, as a result, the company? Grants eyes bored into him. Im glad the Americans picking us off. He deserves it more than we do.
Thats a little much
You damn well know its not. Think of the people we employ. What happens to everyone who works for the line? To the sailors families? I cant tell you how much it pleased me to watch the company grow, to revive another port town. Now, without regard for anyone else, youre killing the one thing that made me proud.
Derek gave an unconcerned shrug just to irritate him.
Grant exhaled and then changed tactics. You may shun everyone you used to associate with, but the rest of your family doesnt.
So thats what this is about? Derek demanded. Your standing in the ton? I can see it now, you and Mother at Lady Sarahs rout hearing tales of the drunken reprobate heir. Do they whisper about me? About me ruining what was already an embarrassing foray into commerce for an ancient family?
Both men stared at each other, neither prepared to back down.
His eyes like ice, Grant finally said, Ill sail this ship if you dont.
Derek recognized where this was going. Yes, he could have all the time in the world to search for Nicole. But then hed have to take up the running of the estates.
Forget it. Im sailing, Derek said. When I feel like it.
Grant leveled a look of fury at him, and Derek was sure hed charge himactually hoped for it. But then Grants restraint came to the fore. That worthless, damning restraint. Grant controlled himself, but did say in a scathing voice, Looks as if youll destroy yourself again because of a woman. Only this time youre taking everyone else down with you. He started toward the door but turned back. You are the most selfish bloody bastard Ive ever had the displeasure to know. That were related makes the insult greater.
Chapter 9
Chancey, will you relax?
Dont want to be here a mite longer, he grumbled as he threw jerky glances over his shoulder around the sitting room of her grandmothers palatial town home. Though none of the priceless knickknacks had changed location since he last checked his surroundings, the hunted look on his face deepened.
She shook her head. As if I do? They simply didnt have a choice since Sutherland had started tearing up the dockside looking for them. They couldnt stay on the quay, much less on their ship. Glaring at the vases will not stop them if they truly want to charge into your hip and break.
He scowled at her. Shed never seen another person so uneasy as Chancey appeared now and for the two nights theyd spent here. And he couldnt stop pulling at his collar, which divided his neck above and below like two cogs from a gear. The dowager, who frightened Chancey more than her home did, had decreed their dress code, but it was next to impossible to find clothes to fit his great bulk. The woman couldnt be dissuaded. If they were to stay in her home or use any door other than the servants entrance, then by God they would dress appropriately.