He pulled back, letting his hand slip down her leg toward the edge of her skirt. "We can't do this here."wI know," she said, sounding so sad that his hand stilled on her knee, and he almost lost his resolve to do the right thing and mind the dictates of propriety.
He thought hard and fast. It was possible that he could make love to her and no one would walk in on them.Heaven knew that in his current state, it would be an embarrassingly fast endeavor, anyway.wWhen is the wedding?" he growled.wA month."wWhat would it take to change that to a fortnight?"
She thought about that for a moment. "Bribery or blackmail. Maybe both. Our mothers will not be easily swayed."
He groaned, letting his hips sink against hers for one delicious moment before heaving himself off. He couldn't take her now. She was going to be his wife. There would be plenty of time for midday tumbles on illicit sofas, but he owed it to her to use a bed for the first time, at least.wColin?" she asked, straightening her dress and smoothing her hair, even though there was no way she was going to make the latter look anything even approaching presentable without a mirror, hairbrush, and maybe even a maid. "Is something wrong?"wI want you," he whispered.
She looked up at him, startled.wI just wanted you to know that," he said. "I didn't want you to think I stopped because you didn't please me."wOh." She looked as if she wanted to say something; she looked almost absurdly happy at his words.wThank you for saying that."
He took her hand and squeezed.wDo I look a mess?" she asked.
He nodded. "But you're my mess," he whispered.
And he was very glad for that.
CHAPTER 16
Colin liked to walk, and in fact frequently did so to clear his mind, it was no surprise that he spent much of the next day traversing Bloomsbury... and Fitzrovia... and Marylebone ... and in fact several other London neighborhoods, until he looked up and realized that he was standing in the heart of Mayfair, in Grosvenor Square, to be precise, outside of Hastings House, town home of the Dukes of Hastings, the latest of whom happened to be married to his sister Daphne.
It had been a while since they'd had a conversation, anything above the usual family chitchat, that was.
Of all his siblings, Daphne was the closest in age to him, and they'd always shared a rather special bond, even though they didn't see each other as much as they used to, what with Colin's frequent travels and Daphne's busy family life.
Hastings House was one of those enormous mansions that one could find scattered throughout Mayfair and St. James's. Large and square and constructed of elegant Portland stone, it was thoroughly imposing in its ducal splendor.
Which made it all the more amusing, Colin thought with a wry grin, that his sister was the current duchess. He couldn't imagine anyone less haughty or imposing. In fact, Daphne had had difficulty finding a husband when she'd been outon the marriage mart, precisely because she was so friendly and easy to be with. Gentlemen had tended to think of her as their friend and not as a prospective bride.
But all that had changed when she'd met Simon Bassett, Duke of Hastings, and now she was a respectable society matron with four children, aged ten, nine, eight, and seven. It still sometimes seemed odd to Colin that his sister was a mother, of all things, while he still lived the free and unfettered life of a bachelor. With only one year between them, he and Daphne had always passed through the various stages of life together. Even when she'd married, things hadn't seemed so very different; she and Simon attended the same parties he did and had many of the same interests and pursuits.
But then she'd started reproducing, and while Colin was always delighted to welcome a new niece or nephew into his life, each arrival had brought home the fact that Daphne had moved on in a way he had not.
But, he thought, smiling as Penelope's face drifted through his mind, he supposed all that would soon change.
Children. It was a rather nice thought, actually.
He hadn't consciously meant to visit Daphne, but now that he was here, he figured he might as well stop
by and say hello, so he marched up the steps and gave the big brass knocker a sturdy clanking. Jeffries, the butler, opened the door almost immediately.wMr. Bridgerton," he said. "Your sister was not expecting you."wNo, I decided to surprise her. Is she at home?"wI shall see," the butler said with a nod, even though they both knew that Daphne would never refuse to see a member of her family.
Colin waited in the drawing room while Jeffries informed Daphne of his presence, wandering idly about, feeling too restless to sit or even stand in one place. After a few minutes,Daphne appeared in the doorway, looking slightly disheveled but happy as always.
And why shouldn't she be? Colin wondered. All she'd ever wanted in life was to be a wife and mother, and it seemed that reality had more than surpassed her dreams.wHello there, sister," he said with a sloppy smile as he crossed the room to give her a quick hug. "You've got..." He motioned to his shoulder.
She looked down at her own shoulder, then smiled sheepishly as she saw the large dark gray smudge on the pale pink fabric of her dress. "Charcoal," she explained ruefully. "I've been trying to teach Caroline to draw."wYou?" Colin asked doubtfully.wI know, I know," she said. "She really couldn't have picked a worse tutor, but she only decided yesterday that she loves art, so I'm all she's got on such short notice."wYou should pack her off to see Benedict," Colin suggested. "I'm sure he'd be happy to give her a lesson or two."wThe thought had already crossed my mind, but I'm sure she'll have moved on to some other pursuit by the time I can make the arrangements." She motioned to a sofa. "Sit. You look rather like a caged cat over there, pacing as you are."